Seeing things in a practical light

终于雨过天晴了 =D

现在真的有一种言语无法形容的开心和辛福 ^^

珍惜现在的每一分每一秒是我现在的心情！

p/s: thanks for all those who care so much for me! 谢了唯一的知心朋友。

辛福有很多种…

我想让人最遗憾的就是来不及的辛福…

这个时刻我真的有将失去最爱的感觉…

看着你离开的背影， 真的想抱着你告诉你我想守护你的决心…可是我没有这么做…

我也只能说…

对不起…

this morning when i saw ur msg, really can feel the sourness in my heart..but what to do..i know u are trying very hard to drive me away..

how i wish i can just let go of you..but the truth is i really can’t..i know i am hurting myself but like what i always say love is really blind…even you are a thorn rose to me i still being attracted to your beautiness..not knowing that i will feel the hurt and pain..

ppl will ask 何苦呢..i only can say 无法自拔吧…

saddness has filled my heart at this moment..not because you want to leave me, is because you don even wan to let me be by your side and get pass that stage..

Just because you care for me…jus because you care for me… =(
我今天 我明天
最想環遊的世界
就是你 最內心 的世界

我後天 大後天
也不疲倦的想念
會是你 看著我 笑的眼

管陰天 管雨天
我的心會是晴天
照亮你 多雲的 那一面

Just reach home and saw BB online…”Tristeza – A fker am I; it’s hurting you when you don’t see me, you’re hurting when you see me too.. how?” (just want to know when i feel hurt, do u you hurt more?)

dunno y the first thing when I was on i went to see whether she is online or not..guess i really miss her alot..

The day seems long to me..though i came to work late and left on time…don feel like working..tickets started to stack..but i dont really care…

Just finished my assignment..and saw her quote “Your faith walks on broken glass and the hangover doesn’t pass; Nothing’s ever built to last, you’re in ruins…” (indeed I am in ruins and only you can make it last..)

my cough is getting worst le..guess i really must seek my friend’s advise go MRI..if add tgt i was coughing for the past 1 year..

Just read BB’s blog few hours ago…for the past few hours i have been reading and reading and reading that entry..i can feel how upset she was when she is writing that entry.

after so many years i have nv really felt so upset before..faith brought us together but destiny break us apart…my bitter tears realli can’t stop rolling down into my mouth…finally it came to a stop when my eyes are swallon…and i am here writing this entry on my blog after so long…

what she say is right…my heart is really bleeding for her now..knowing that she care for me so much…but yet she want me to leave her behind..

I realli regret to say yes when she ask me whether i wan to know how she feel at that time…i rather i have never saw her blog and remain as it is..

yes i am a big big silly fool like what she mentioned in her blog but that is me..i did everything just for the one i love..i accept everything she is cos i love her..i guess i am not as wei da as what she say..i am selfish…i don wish to let go..

she mentioned…”if something doesnt kill you, it makes u stronger”, i am just strong enough or rather say i am trained to be strong  after all.

i totally agree with her that life is always unfair..but i guess this is my life i have to accepted it as the way it is and compromise it..be it if i am the one who is always on the giving in side..i have no regrets..

its easy to ask ppl to give up but for the person who is trying to give up its not easy..somemore is when that person really treasure u so much..

how to move on without u my dear..as for now i have really no clue..guess like what she say i have realli fall to bottom of the well le..

ps: BB in my heart you are definitely qualified..

现在是凌晨三点三十分，本来因该在被窝里呼呼大睡的，但不知为和就是睡不着。我想可能小猫等一下给我的 morning call ,可能我都还没睡咯。

因为睡不着， 我刚刚看了螞蚁的布落格。 我心里感到有一点感伤。 也许我们各自有了彼此的忙碌生活，但是螞蚁在我心里是一个我非常重要的人。我也知道她是一个非常珍惜的友谊的人。

也许螞蚁认为多年已来没有人记得她的生日，但我从来没忘过。

希望她辛福快乐！

有一点早不过 月（巴+巴）先祝你生日快乐！  ^-^

Just realise my blog one year plus nv update le..I recall mayi keep ask me to update previously but I just 提不起劲 to update anything.

First time in my live I like 迷失方向, dunno what I am doing also..I dunno y this past one year I like to be alone..my friends keep asking me out but I keep find all kind of excuses not to go out..I guess that is why all my friends 一个一个都离我越来越远了吧..Apologise to all my friends that still care about me..

But currently I just want to be alone..Don ‘t ask me why cus myself also dunno..

New year le.. back to school again.. sick of cabal, but still playing..小猫 recently also start to play le.. still waiting for her to lvl up but her neo pets still no 1 to her..haaa..

As usual watching drama still part of my life..though might be boring to other ppl but I like it..Recently watching 海派甜心(damn funny show) & 下一站,幸福…both also quite nice..

Anyway…

希望我所有的好朋友都辛福快乐！

Recently so busy with work i guess… all of my colleague one by one go on leave only me and EK never..sob..

Some updates..

08/12/2008 – Movie: Bolt

Watch the movie call BOLT with 小猫..an animation doggie movie..very highly recommended..the show is sooo funny until i can still laugh when i think of the scenes in the show now. Especially RHINO…Joke of the show…*haha*

Bolt

10/12/2008 – Dinner at Waraku

Dinner at Waraku with lee siah, shandy, jean and selene..Oraganize by Lee Siah as we all quite long never meet up for dinner le..also get the chance to gib her the “Ang Bao” for her birthday pressie…The bowl and Waraku is really BIG I have to say.. Jean look small with the BIG bowl..Food was overall nice to me..

12/12/2008 – Briefing at MHC

Went back to Mandai Hill Camp for reservist briefing.. actually is get to know my reservist unit and what I will be doing for reservist for the upcoming 10 years of my life..My unit is 769 SIR..Inventory..means those chiong swang type de..most likely will go for my first reservist in dec 2009. Heng still same with sebas, henry, sgt liao, qianbao, justin and joseph…at least someone i know from 2 Brigade..

20/12/2008 – Basic Theory Test

I was so lazy until now still haven’t go to get my driving license..

Thanks to 小猫 I booked by basic theory which is today and passed it.. I think is because i studied before in army le..so like to me quite easy..finished the test in 15 mins and was the first to get out that room..

Booked my advance theory test on the 31st of Jan 09..

Now going to find a private instructor to get started with driving again..

Some events during this ding ding dang ding ding dang period..

24/12/2008 – Christmas lunch & 火锅

Christmas Lunch at MLT..workplace actually..dunno got half day or not..

Dinner with Shandy & Jean they all.. 火锅 at bugis..their favourite! haa but this time not suggested by Shandy but Cong Yi..

25/12/2008 – Lonely Christmas

No one date me so far..*sob*

26/12/2008 – KTV @ Chinatown

Sian today after christmas have to work..but thn after work going K with a group of colleagues at China Town..Should be fun i think..

不良笑花

Watched finish this show called 不良笑花 acted by 潘玮柏 & 杨丞琳..Rainie was very ah soh and funny in the show..especially when she speaks..i think thats the real her lor..haa..

Mayi and kiat keep saying I missing…haa mayi even lodge a police report to kiat.. Anway don’t worry I am still alive! =D

Oh ya..dint get to meet up with yy for dinner cos every time she called I am always sleeping…always fall asleep in the evening when she called me..

Today christmas eve..and now was like 3.45am but i suddenly woke up at 2am jus now when i was already in my dreamland at around 10pm..cant sleep lei..sian..

k la thats all for now..

Wish all my friends and family a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Yesterday went to see doctor..was coughing so badly and feeling so hot…fever + ultimate cough..

got 2 days mc from the doctor..after i ate my medicine..i feel drowsy and went to sleep..when i open my eyes is like OMG 1030pm..faint slept so long..but i still feel giddy..think sleep too much..

now is like 11am in the morning..still feel giddy, vision a bit blur..coughing as usual..I tried not to drink cold water already..hope can recover soon..

Today after lunch went to century square to walk walk..thn saw this nike headphone..quite nice so i bought it but thn i realise don’t feel quite comfortable wearing it…sob…

Nike Flight Sport Headphone